having bpd sucks because you memorize and learn people’s everyday routine so if they don’t talk to you at their usual hour of the day you automatically think they hate you and want nothing to do with you
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My 20 Moods in daily order
1. Fuuuck myyy liiiife, I hate me
2. I can do this. I’m ready I’m ready I’m readyedyedyedyedy
3. I CAN’T DO THIS!!! FUUCK LIFE
4. How can I get better and focus on building a strong mentality
5. I will never get through this…
6. *looks in the mirror* i think i look a little sexy…lol shutup you ugly AF
7. Which destructive behavior should I start on first?
8. *anyone who says something of value to me* please don’t leave me I will do anything
9. *anyone who says nothing of value to me* oh i forgot you were still alive because your dead to me I’m ALOT better than you
10. *anyone I have or have had any relationship with* why did you leave me why do you hate me…well I don’t need you anyway I have plenty of people…but I miss you soo bad
11. I am so evil. I wanna go burn down a house and shoot somebody in the face for fun lol damn im so bad I do what the hell I want when the hell I want to
12. Why do I feel like a empty black hole in space floating around? Is this real right now? Am I real?
13. I’m such a monster. Everybody hates me because I’m a ugly, god forbidden, soul sucking, world hated Monster
14. I have to do some type of destructive behavior it’s all I’m good at and all I’m worth
15. I wish I was somebody else I just wanna die or go away and never come back no one will ever know who I am
16. I’m going to start trying even harder than I ever have
17. I’m going to doing absolutely nothing and stare into space and overthink about my past
18. I’m so happy!!! YALL GONE MAKE ME LOOSE MY MIND UP IN HERE UP IN HERE
19. Yay I got like 1 thing done today I’m trying and progressing
20. I am a complete bag of shit, maybe I can be like somebody who has strength and potential tomorrow, but I can go sleep because what happens when people go to sleep, how do I go to sleep do I just think sleep and it happens, but what if I don’t wake up, or what I don’t wake up on time, but how do people actually go to sleep like what’s the process because I won’t remember thinking about going to sleep, does my mind just go blank when my mind is ready to go to sleep what will see though, or will I be able to see, will I be able to stay asleep this time, how can I go to sleep without realizing I’m going to sleep so I won’t be worried about sleeping, I don’t think that even possible thou….
Someone: “how’s life?”
*Me, thinking of the 57 mental breakdowns I’ve had today*: “things are okay :)”
Anonymous asked:
Questo post : "Poi ti chiedi perché quella ragazza ti perseguita…."
Un'amica.
some pretty things in french ✨
un arc-en-ciel - a rainbow
des paillettes - glitter
un papillon - a butterfly
des nuages - clouds
une fleur - a flower
une guirlande de pâquerettes - a daisy chain
la soie - silk
une perle - a pearl
un petit gâteau - a cupcake
une abeille - a bee
un coquillage - a seashell
un bracelet à breloques- a charm bracelet
un collier - a necklace
une bicyclette - a bicycle
les étoiles - stars
l’océan - ocean
la lune - moon
le lever du soleil - sunrise
le coucher du soleil - sunset
le crépuscule - twilight
une robe - dress
une licorne - a unicorn
Anonymous asked:
Ma di chi parli, con chi ce l'hai?
Dipende. Quale post dici?
dollydelrey